why i haven't been posting

Life has a funny way of showing us what matters. I had to lose "what matters" to actually understand how important it is. "What Matters" is different for all of us. It could be one thing or a hundred. In this blog post, I'll not only explain "what matters" but why it led me going ghost for a couple months.

1. Positivity. I get it, it's hard to be positive sometimes when your feeling down, but that's okay! I've been feeling a lot more negative in the past months and that brings yourself down, and also people around you. Being negative is also different for all of us and it's important to try to recognize your own way. For me, I turn really dull. I don't want to talk, I'm emotionless and I don't want to do anything. Some days it gets so bad, I don't even want to get out of bed and eat. It also affects my stomach and acne, and it makes me the opposite of who I am. Remember to pull up your positive side, and let it shine like the star you are.

2. Creativity. This time, I'm talking to you kids who glance at their phone or device and look up an hour later. There's got to be dozens who do that (like me) and that's normal. But here's the thing, devices dull a part in your brain called your Frontal Cortex which embraces your creative thinking. At one point, I'd spend around an average of three hours of combined watching TV, staring at my phone and playing and watching videos on the iPad every day. I tried to stop it but I couldn't! This is called Addiction. I found a way to stop electronics for a week, and I was sketching, reading, singing, doing things I forgot that I loved doing!

3. Happiness. Happiness is something that instantly puts a smile on your face. And if you can't find happiness somewhere, create your own by doing something you love. Don't think happiness is 30 second happiness of watching a show because that was the mistake I made. When I deprived myself of my creativity, I lost all my happiness for doing my passion which is writing this blog and making videos, so I just stopped doing them. And when I look back at that, I feel so stupid.

4. Passion. Positivity, Creativity, and Happiness all add up to this. If your Passion requires work, that may give you stress, and make you annoyed every time you come to face it, then it's good. "Ughhhh" I'd think every time I'd think about working. And all you need to say is I don't want to do this any-STOP RIGHT THERE!! Don't fall for it! You may really hate it because you really hate it, but if you want to quit because it's hard, don't! Don't fall into the trap that your mind had set for you. Do not make the same mistake I did of quitting my only real passion for nothing except sitting on the couch and binging Anime for hours! It may seem fun, it may be relaxing, but it's not something to be proud of.

This was the first time I really opened up to public about how I've been feeling, and what has been going on. I guess when school started, my priorities shifted and that carried with me to summer as well. Next time your feeling down, stressed and you can't find happiness anywhere, find your own way to be your own unique self.